Life + Style

August 12, 2010

To all my male readers and interior design interested only peeps, stop reading here. This whole post is going to not only bore you but scare you as well and probably make you swear off my blog forever. And I don't want that to happen. I'm not going to hold it against you and I suggest you hop on over to the side bar POSH BABYGIRL to see some more precious pics of my fabulous child like the one above!

For the rest of you, its really not that bad. Especially if you are a mom or know a new one.

Anyone who tells you the hardest part about a newborn is the sleeplessness obviously didn't breastfeed. That is way harder. Probably the hardest thing I've ever attempted to do. And according to both the lactation consultant at the hospital and our pediatrician's office, BabyGirl and I are really good at it. Only problem? My body didn't get the memo. My milk has never really come in. No giant porn-star boobs, no soreness, no engorgement or letdown. No tingles and sadly, no milk. After several failed attempts to get BabyGirl to pass a weight check at the doctors office I sat down and became super friendly with my Medela pump. I think I frightened myself by that first visual. I'm producing about an ounce on one side and half and ounce on the other at best. And this is with my mother keeping me rested, fed and my child calm. No biggie, I pump and we supplement with formula. Not the plan. But who cares, you know what BabyGirl thinks of those anyway.
So my mother left last Saturday and what happens? BabyGirl stays up all night screaming and spitting up on Daddy, it's projectile I'm told, while this PoshMama stays up all night with the feverish woes of mastitis. If you don't know what that is, you're lucky. It feels like the flu. If you do, I am so sorry for each and every one of you. As if taking care of a newborn isn't hard enough, I get this. Apparently this causes me to produce even less and for it taste funky. My child wants nothing to do with it.
Apparently she has an advanced palate.
You should have seen the look on my face as I poured two hard earned ounces down the drain.
Thank the the lord, seriously, I mean no disrespect, for antibiotics.
I feel a bit more human now.
I even convinced Matthew to take his us all to Barnes & Noble.
Needless to say she projectiled the moment we hit the double doors.
Uggh, tomorrow I'm thinking we stay home to nap.



  1. Seriously, UGH! I'm so sorry that you got mastitis. If it makes you feel any better, formula has worked wonderfully for both of my girls, and I started them both early on it. W(at 5 weeks) and E (at 3 weeks). So far they haven't had allergies or anything else, related to not having been breastfed. I had the same problem, I didn't produce hardly any milk either. It was so frustrating not being able to satisfy W, but once we started formula, it was WONDERFUL! Hope you get well soon! :)

  2. Oh no! I'm so sorry - the first six weeks were hard enough for me withOUT mastitis. Can't imagine how tough that is. Hope you're hanging in there!

  3. Oh, and I LOVE her name! Lets just say what y'all are calling her, is very similar to W's name. :)

  4. I am so sorry that you didn't get to breastfeed like you wanted... but I'm sure posh babygirl will be just as healthy as a horse!! And PS.. I am dying of cuteness overload from the pictures on her picture page!

  5. Such a sweet photo! I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I can't imagine. Hang in there and feel better!! It sounds like your sweet hubby is taking good care of you and your sweet baby.

  6. Remember the only bad mother is the mother that does not feed her child!

  7. Thanks ladies! I have a friend who mentioned something about putting cabbage leaves in your bra to draw out the infection. Unfortunately I didn't learn about this remedy until after I'd been on antibiotics for a week and thankfully they did the trick! I honestly have been doing GREAT and am starting to feel like we've got it under control. Of course, that means accomplishing NOTHING but keeping this babygirl alive. But that's okay for at least a few more weeks :)


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