It's hard to believe that another year has passed us by. I only know that because Tagg woke us up crying at 11:45 last night. I would have happily slept right through ringing in the new year. It's never been my favorite holiday.
How quickly these things come the older I get. The days are long but the years go by fast. Truer words were never spoken. I feel like it was just yesterday that I sat down to write this same blog post. Thoughts on the new year. I felt overwhelmed and uneasy. The future had proved to be something unreliable and scary. That uncertainty wasn't welcome in my head or my heart.
I asked for things not to change. For constant.
What I got was an upheaval of my family in our home, yet again. I got a baby who would begin a seven month stint into weekly physical therapy. I got a baby and a toddler who were diagnosed with drug, outdoor, and, food allergies. I got a one year old with eczema so severe it literally kept him, and me, up all night. I got sleepless nights and long days with two children, one of whom doesn't nap. I got the exhausting job of raising two small children who vehemently prefer their mother to everyone and refuse to let anyone else care for them or help them. I got the lonely task of being a stay at home mom to two small children without the safety net of a large group of girlfriends.
It's taken me up until this morning, as I write this post, to realize that constant is exactly what I got. I got the consistency of finding comfortable shelter for my family, even if that was technically under four different roofs. How blessed are we to have these options. I got the constant excitement of buying a new home in a neighborhood we love with wonderful neighbors. That feeling still hasn't worn off. I got the consistency of never worrying how I would pay to feed my family and a community of help to show me endless allergy-free options. I got a baby who would learn to walk and then to run and then turn into a little boy. I got a little girl who would blossom at school and learn independence and confidence in her little self. I got to share my children's world this year. I got to form closer friendships with a few good friends who actually live in my town.
I got a husband who is my constant. I got two loving children who are my constant.
So this year, I'm feeling a bit more sturdy on my feet. I'm not going to ask for more of the same. I'm going to embrace change and seek it out proactively. I'm working on my goals for this year, which I'll share with you as soon as I do them. Both professionally and personally. I want to utilize my time better. Focus in on what I really want to accomplish and carve out time to succeed.
Our family mission statement remains the same. Create a life that feels good on the inside not one that just looks good on the outside. This is truly my wish for my family this year and for you as well. With so much social media surrounding us constantly, it's easy to lose sight of what you hold important in favor of what others tell you is important to them. That's not good for your soul.
Let's do this year together. Cheers to 2014 being the BEST YEAR YET!